So lately I’ve been pretty emotional again. yay…..these hormones suck lol. But I honestly feel like i haven’t been doing anything with my life these past few days. I just feel so alone and bored all the time. I honestly can’t wait for my baby girl to get here. I just want to hold her and just knowing that someone can love you automatically is a crazy feeling lol. I also have started to feel like i’m not good enough again, I know becoming a parent is a huge step in life and no i’m not referring that i wont be a good enough mother because i know i will be just fine. but i feel like i’m taking away so much from my boyfriend and i can’t help to think i’m ruining his life. I know different people handle things differently but I can’t help and feel like that. I feel so bad when I don’t feel up for something and he does, and the worst part is feeling like his friends only invite me somewhere because i’m pregnant. Honestly, that’s why I tell him to just go and do stuff with his friends, I don’t want them to feel the need to invite me or feel pity on me just cause i’m pregnant. Sometimes they don’t invite me and he’s like come. Why? I wasn’t invited, why would anybody want me there? IF they wanted me there I would have gotten invited as well. This just sucks, but I do know that once I have my baby, I will only have a few select close friends. Which I already do have and I thank god that they are still in my life. Like my best friend I’m glad she’s still someone I can count on, and of course I know my family will always be there and all of my followers as well ;) Growing up is such a weird feeling, and I just want things to start changing but they soon will. I have a feeling this little girl is going to be born sooner then her due date.